Responding to Jordan

I watched myself walk onto the field with the men. I feel helpless and trapped outside of myself in this time lapse. I realized that this field was not a field at all. It was a test. When I saw myself reach for the butterfly photo again it was as if time froze. I walked on to the field and picked up the baseball. The second my finger touched the ball flashes of color swirled around me and I was filled with more knowledge than ever before. All of my uncertainty went away and I felt powerful. Words were flooding my mind saying "You are the resistor". This whole thing was a set up. My mind is filled with horrible images, terrible things have happened here on this field. My other classmates weren't in another class. They all died. They were killed by this system but for some reason I am different. For some reason I survived but part of me wishes I had died because now I know what I have to do.