BE STILL.

I believe doubt is more of a "thirst for faith" than a period of darkness. When I doubt, I feel like my faith is being tested and strengthened. It is becoming more meaningful, more true. I don't quite know how to explain it, but I know that a strong faith is impossible without doubt. When I was really little (like 4 or 5) I struggled so much with the concept of infinity, forever, etc... I didn't doubt the existence of an infinite God because I was young and my values, reason, and logic were wrapped around the truths of our home. But as I got older I started questioning these things more. I wanted to know Christ more and develop a stronger faith. But I had to face my doubts in order to grow. As I leaned into Christ more and more, and as I desired my truth to line up with God's truth, I realized how much the world doesn't want me to do so. I am either overwhelmed with distractions (to keep my mind off of Christ) or faced with those doubts that force me to make a very important decision: I can either give in to the ways of the world, what the "popular" people say is true, my doubts. OR I can continue to lean on Christ and trust in Him with all I have, even when I don't feel free, or joyful, or any sense of peace or certainty. I strive to trust in the Lord in all of my uncertainty. He strengthens me as I call on Him in times of confusion, doubt, or anxiety. But so many times the distractions of life crowd my soul and rob me of the opportunity to draw closer to Him. When I give into these distractions and don't take time to be still with Him (especially in times of doubt), I am leaving my faith behind despite my soul calling out for time with Him.


Take time to BE STILL. Let your soul ponder the wonders of God and face the doubts it must face to grow stronger in faith.